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idk why, but im utterly obsessed with bakugo and his s.o calling each other butt face instead of those "sweet" callsigns like baby, love etc.. UGHH IM SO INLOVE W HIM IT HURTS
PLEEAAASEE i love this too anon and i KNOW he gets so pressed about it.
i'm very much of a believer that katsuki is a "it's only funny when i do it" typa person. which means he can call you poopy buttface shit head moron and so on,,but the moment you do itâs a problem smh.
i also see this vividly tbh and i find it adooooooorable i dunno donât look at mee. like katsuki playfully addressing you as shit head while ruffling your hair, so you shoot back with a dick cheese and âwho the fuck is dick cheese ? you wanna go, dimwit ?!â and then woops youâre play fighting n wrestling now.
your friends donât really get the vision tho, but you both do and you like it. so honestly yall donât really caređ€·đŸââïž
if katsuki feels INCREDIBLY annoying that day heâll call you his little insult. âmy little dumbassâ, âmy little shit headâ stuff like that. itâs meant to be affectionate but itâs also meant to piss you the fuck off lmfao heâs insufferable.
#i am a believer of katsuki petname bkg#but i like this too#or or or katsuki saying ur first name in a specific kinda way OUGHHHH#i melt for those#prefer me the first one thođ€đŸ#cash responds very late again so sorry yall :(((#cash responds :p#cash question corner !#bakugou katsuki x reader#katsuki bakugou x reader#bakugo fluff#bakugou imagine#bakugou x reader#katsuki x reader#bakugou katsuki#katsuki bakugo x reader#bakugou katuski x reader#bakugou fluff
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i wanted to write a quick 3-chapter fic for day 4 of loa shiptober (how they met i think) and i (a fool) was like. yeah. i could totally write 3 chapters in a few hours. i was wrong. SO wrong. havenât even finished kremyâs (the first one).
so instead have a maybe-past-kremy design that im conflicted about compared to his current design, as a peace offering
#i kinda hate this ngl#im still writing it itâll be like a week or two late tho skfjd#i spend like 20 minutes playing around with one 5-line paragraph#logical human brain says edit after getting the story out#but the worms consuming it say âit has to be good on the first draft or else you suckâ and i cant argue with that#i like to think that kremy used to dress kind of dark and simple bc he didnt have that much money to spend on luxuries#and he saved up for his silly fancy suit#and spooky fancy cane#and silly fancy tophat!#he has fun with it i think#kremy doesnt draw on a mustache every day for nothing gotta give him his flowers#not too sure how i feel about my past kremy design tbh#i did just pull up pinterest and search up suit. so. thats on me lol#let me know what yall think#thanks for reading my tag rambles mwah mwah#kremy appreciation <3#once upon a witchlight#legends of avantris#kremy lecroux#ouaw fanart#my art
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gojo would kill your work husband. but if he were the work husband, that's a different story
REAL!! heâs such a hypocrite because if someone mentioned you had a work husband, his entire world would stop and he wold devise the absolute worst plans to make sure that your co-worker, everyone at your job, and everyone in the next building over knew that he was happily committed to youÂ
but if he is the work husband, heâs very........ dutiful in his role. thereâs a loose office/lawyer au in my head where satoru is your secretary, and for all intents and purposes, your personal assistant, and heâs good at his job, but mostly because he considers his job to be pleasing you. he has coffee for you when you arrive, he moves your schedule around without you asking, he has answers to questions before you can even ask them, he has fresh flowers on your desk weekly, pokes into your meetings to pretend to hand you a file thatâs really just maybe a single document in a manilla folder with candy on top of itâheâs made himself your business, your partner; heâs made himself irreplaceable, and he loves to remind everybody of that fact.Â
heâs also extremely loyal. sure, he could day a weekâs worth of work done in about a day, but that doesnât mean heâll just use his talents for anybody. heâs your secretary, so heâs at your beck and call, and everyone knows it. they know heâs the best, but also that heâs off limitsânot because you wonât share him, but because satoru wonât let himself be shared.Â
he also extends his duties beyond work, of course. when he hands you a print out of your schedule for the day and youâre confused by the three-hour block of time you have in the middle of the day, satoru just helps you shrug your coat of your shoulders and smiles, âthatâs for the lunch date you have with me, of course!â hanging up your coat in your closet for you, âiâm paying, see you soon, sweets.â and because youâre great at your job, and satoru helps you be great, nobody really questions when the two of you have time for a 13-course tasting menu at 1pm on a tuesday afternoon. and if they did, all satoru would say that you two had a lovely dateÂ
#anonymous#he's like donna from suits but worse because he's like if harvey were donna LOL#i have soooooo much to say about him#he doesn't really Have to work he's a nepotism baby supreme#but he met you maybe in undergrad? and he's been obsessed w you since#he knows youre a workaholic so he's dutifully sat by your side all these years through college through grad/professional school#and when you told him you got to hire your own assistant he was the very first applicant#because getting paid to spend his days with you and take care of you? he was already doing that for free might as well make it official#everyone in the office knows satoru loves you except you honestly#he probably has his own masters/JD but elects to be your assistant anyway bc that's so much more fun#what he Really wants to be a househusband but first he's gotta ask you out and propose and all that good stuff (cue him rolling his eyes#and going on about formalities and boring systems and blah blah blah)#also in the office au in my head: nanami (also senior partner) higuruma ofc <3 beloved (managing partner) and TOJI!#WALK WITH ME!#its honestly probably satoru's influence that gets toji into law... as someone who so feverently broke it in the past#idk maybe there's a megumi situation that makes gojo be like yk if ur this good at skirting/breaking the law youd probably be half decent#at enforcing it... or at least helping other people get around it too#and so lawyer toji is born#does he screw around w the rich people who r stupid w their money? absolutely#but you nanami and higuruma just let it be bc he brings in those settlements better than anybody else....#hmmm... i kinda wanna make megumi somebody's associate but also..... yuuta.....#i think i just like sticking yuuta in a tie if im being real#but anyway... satoru is your Work Husband and everyone knows he wants to be your real husband#but they just let it slide bc rumour has it even tho hes just a secretary hes got equity in the firm?? and besides that his heart eyes give#away his hopeless devotion from a mile away#the day you actually start seeing somebody outside of work... oh theyre in for Trouble#satoru x reader#him dragging you out of ur office late at night and u protesting so he just. puts u over his shoulder#and ur telling him to let u down but he's insisting u go home and then nanami pops out of his office#and ur like wait nanami this isnt what it looks like but he's so dead in the eyes when he just sighs
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Dying Star

In the back of your mind, you recall something you once heard, something about light, and time, and distance. Space. Something about... how you can still see a star that's already burnt out, because its light hasn't reached earth yet. The ghost of a star that's already died. Only still perceptible thanks to time, and distance.
You remember Sam's words, once whispered to you on this very roof.
"Whatever your choice is... I'm not gonna live forever. I made that decision a long time ago."
You think about dead stars.
You think about time.
- - - - - - -
Samâs words have been weighing heavy on your mind ever since you discussed your shared future and the various forms it could take. You didnât realize just how heavy they were until it all came spilling out of your tired mind on a late night spent together beneath the stars.
Pairing:Â Sam x Darlin' / Reader
Word Count:Â 4,053
Contains: [angst] [a dash of humor] [a hint of chubby!Sam bc i like 'em strong and soft] [crying] [cuddling (dub-con cuddles with Quinn in the past & consensual ones with Sam in the present)] [emotional hurt/comfort] [implied/referenced dub-con sex (nothing graphic) (in the past between Darlin' and Quinn to be specific) (refer to my Ao3 notes for further explanation)] [mentioned Quinn] [not quite Dissociation i guess but Darlin' does zone-out/get lost in thought more than once] [pet names (Darlin' (obvs.) and honey)] [Reader is Darlin'] [Sam wears a cowboy hat bc i said so] [some passive suicidality from Sam if you squint (hell, maybe you don't even have to squint)]
A/Ns: Well, well, well, here I am, the person who said they wouldn't write any Redactedverse fanfic. I recently felt a mighty need to expand upon the blurb I wrote in this post, and I'm braving my fandom anxiety by sharing it here. pls be nice 2 me abt it
Timeline-wise, this fic takes place sometime after the âTalking About the Future With Your Vampire Mateâ audio but sometime before their presumed eventual departure from the house that William gave Sam, given that they've already had the 'turning' discussion but are still on the same roof in this fic.
This is a songfic, inspired by and quoting verses from 3 songs. Those being:
âDying Starâ by Ashnikko feat. Ethel Cain
âFix What You Didnât Breakâ by Nate Smith
âNo Planâ by Hozier
The roof of Samâs house is far from a âcushyâ place to relax. But as you lie here next to him under the stars, a knowledge settles within you that you wouldnât trade the rough shingles beneath you for the softest mattress in the world. Not if it meant thereâd be anyone other than him lying next to you.
Some people might counter that itâs an easy thing for you to say, given the number of nights youâve thrown a balled-up shirt onto one end of a worn-out couch and called it a bed. But some people donât know you as well as they think they do.
Youâve known luxury. Quinn mightâve been just as content taking his fill on a seedy motel bed as he was wrapped in silks at a Hilton, but he knew how to play up the luxe when it served him to do so. And in the early days as he worked to lure you in, it did. Plush sheets and expensive drinks helped to soften the preordained blows and dull the imminent pain that your nights with him held.
Once youâd latched onto the bait though, he let the act drop one piece at a time, like props collapsing on a stage. After all, what was the point in all of those frivolities when you both knew what you really came to him for? It wasnât to be wined and dined, it wasnât to be dressed up and shown off, and it wasnât even to be slowly stripped of it all, laid out across the rolling clouds of a pillowy mattress.
It was to be used. Tranced. Restrained. Bitten. Drank from. Choked. Hit. Edged. Denied. Made to writhe and whine and bleed and plead. Plead for more, for less, for nothing, for anything. Anything to quiet your mind and fill the ever-expanding void inside you where you suspect love was supposed to live.
Thatâs what you both really wanted.
At least, thatâs what you told him you wanted.
Thatâs what you told yourself.
You only got what you asked for.
To your right, Sam stirs, stretching gently with a yawn. The soft noise he releases as he does so reminds you of where you are, and you trace back through your thoughts to find how you got so lost.
âŠRight. Luxury.
While your relationship with Quinn certainly changed over time, you never forgot what it felt like in the beginning.Â
You remember nights laid next to him, body sore, mind quiet. Quinnâs idea of aftercare was lacking to say the least, but you had nothing better to compare it to at the time, and youâd take what you could get. At least your head felt empty, and the bed was soft. Exhaustion would pull you under soon enough.
The mattress, sheets, and pillows enveloping you were likely worth more than you even made that past month. ...Or several. You found that display of luxury hard to be impressed by though, when it wasnât the type of comfort youâd been seeking.
As Quinn shifted in his presumed sleep, pulling you in tighter, you didnât fight it. You found yourself unwilling to fight anything he did, like his mere presence was enough to drain the fight right out of you. You told yourself that you were okay with that. Because you wanted it.
Lying there with your head on his bare chest, you took a deep breath and told yourself that you liked the stench of cheap cologne, poorly masking the cigarettes and alcohol on his breath. You silently told yourself that you liked everything. You liked the pain that he chased with hints of pleasure. You liked the loss of power, the way you couldnât fight back if you wanted to once he looked you in the eyes. You liked all the things he said, no matter how much the truth might hurt.
He was right, you supposed. Your desires, the things you craved, the depravity that you so enjoyed, wasnât normal. It was uncommon, unusual, and in the eyes of some, unfathomable. To possess such dark desires, there must be something truly broken inside you.
How lucky you were, to have found someone willing to indulge you. Someone that could give you everything you wanted, and be so kind as to keep it a secret too. He promised that word of the things he did to you, the things you let him do, would never get out. You remember the way he held your hand as he told you, falling for the guise of sincerity in his eyes. You remember his warm smile, and his razor sharp teeth.
You remember seeing that exact same smile on his face through one-way glass as he sat across from Sam and told him everything.
You stood in that room and thought back to those nights of luxury. To the feeling of his nails ghosting over the freshly healed punctures in your neck. To the way he held you against him. You remember laying there, lifeless, feeling like prey playing dead. Afraid to move, afraid to disturb him. But why? He hadnât threatened you. He never told you that you had to stay. He never said that you couldnât move, or pull away. So why did you feel that way?
As you stood, helplessly witnessing hours of his slander in that interrogation room, you understood. Your rose-tinted glasses had long since shattered, and you saw that smile for what it was. It was the smile of a man playing a dangerous game, brimming with satisfaction, thinking heâd won.
The radio near you begins to crackle, static obscuring the hosts voice as they announce the upcoming song. Sam doesnât even open his eyes, just raises a hand and reaches out, blindly adjusting the antenna of the old device.
Youâve teased him for holding onto it for so long, as he is wont to do with damn near all of his possessions. But as you watch him deftly extend and angle the antenna with practiced care, the response he once gave you proves itself true once again.
âI donât wanna replace it, Darlinâ. Itâs not broken. It just needs someone who knows how to make it sing again.â
The static clears, and music flows through the radioâs old speakers once more.
You watch Sam return his hand to its prior position beneath his head, acting as a makeshift pillow of his own. The way heâs lying has his hat pushed forward, and itâd be doing a damn good job of shielding his face from the sun if it werenât somewhere around midnight at the moment. Still, it suits him somehow, despite its lack of any practicality. All heâs missing is a stalk of wheat between his teeth and a tree to lean against and heâd be the spitting image of the cowboy he swears he isnât.
His other hand rests on the soft curve of his stomach, rising and falling again as he breathes. Heâs the image of peace in moments like these, and youâre drawn to it like a moth to flame. Maybe one of these days youâll find some of your own, but for now youâre more than content to bask in his.
As you admire him, he takes a slow, deep breath and you mirror it on instinct. The grounding practice helps you leave your mind and return to your body, if just for a moment. In doing so, you realize just how tense your ruminations have made you.
You relax your hands, releasing the blanket beneath you from your iron grip. You brush your palms over it, worried that youâve torn the fabric once you realize that your nails had halfway shifted to claws. You donât fret much over damage to your own possessions, but this blanket is Samâs and youâd hate to ruin it. Though, you suppose he doesnât prize it too much or he wouldnât have laid it out here across the roof in the first place.
âIf I buy somethinâ itâs because I wanna use it. Now quit frettinâ and get over here.â You recall what he told you earlier as he patted the blanket next to him in invitation, and you smile.
Doing a small stretch of your own, you release the tension in your shoulders, turning your attention back to the stars above you. For a while, you let the soft music wash over your tired mind.
âI asked him not to kill me politely. He drained my magic core, bottled up at the source. I washed up on the sea glass shores. Iâm nobody's captive.â
In spite of your best efforts to relax, youâre still subconsciously futzing with the loose threads of the old blanket beneath you.
Youâre made aware of it when Sam reaches a hand down, gently laying it over yours and effectively stilling your anxious motion.
âBurning like a dying star, invasive weeds rooted in my heart, set in a crooked trajectory. The journey here was hard, I was almost pulled apart. Trying to leave his orbit took whatâs left of me.â
You flip your hand over beneath his so you can hold it properly, lacing your fingers together.
For reasons beyond your understanding, emotion tightens your throat, the threat of tears pooling in your eyes.
âŠYou must be more tired than you thought.
As minutes pass and one song fades into another, your gaze dances across the blurry, scattered points of light in the dark sky.
âYou were the star in the pitch black, shine the way on the way back. Out of nowhere, answered all my prayers.â
Samâs always been so much better at identifying stars and finding constellations. But as the music plays, you begin to see one of your own.
âPicked up the towel that I threw in, took in a heart that was ruined. Showed me the past ainât a tattoo, loved me even when you didnât have to.â
âSam.â You squeeze his hand to get his attention.
He squeezes back in acknowledgment. âHm?â
âI want you to look at something.â You swallow back the emotion that tries to seep into your voice, but it catches his attention all the same.
He leans up and lifts his hat from his head, setting it aside near the radio. He then reaches to turn a dial back, lowering the musicâs volume to give you his full attention.
You release his hand, raising yours up as he turns back to face you. You donât say anything at first, nearly too lost in your own mind to realize you need to actually voice your developing thoughts.
"Whatâwhat're you pointin' at Darlin'?"
Your hazy focus is trained on the brightest star visible in your line of sight, arm stretched out to the sky above you. "That really bright one, to the... to the left."
Sam does his best to follow your less-than-specific directions of 'to the left', your pointed finger doing little to help given the difference in perspective. Luckily, after all these years, he knows this stretch of night sky like the back of his hand, so it isn't hard to locate the brightest one. Ghosting his fingers up along your exposed wrist where your sleeve had slipped back, he takes your hand in his again and brings it back down to earth. "Okay, yeah, I see it now. What about it though?"
"That's you." You say, matter-of-factly.
"That's me?" He questions, humor in his tone.
"Mhm." You nod with finality, blinking slow.
Sam considers the odd statement for a moment before gently correcting you. "I'm uh, I'm pretty sure that's Sirius, actually."
You scoff. "I am being serious."
Sam stifles a laugh. "Noâno I meanâlike... what's another name for it... Oh, it's also called the Dog Star."
"C'mon Sam, at least call it the Wolf Star if you're trying to turn this around on me..."
He shakes his head and readies himself to explain further, but you cut him off before he can start. "But no. No, this isn't about me. That's you."
He decides to play along, finding something endearing in your overtired nonsense. "Okay... then would'ja be so kind as to explain to this confused old man just how, or why that star is me?"
Your frown is audible in your voice as you latch onto the wrong part of his sentence. "You're not old, Sam. ...Do I need to tell Asher to kick the jokes down a notch?"
He smiles at your over-protectivity. "There'll be no need for that, now. Was just a joke, honey, I promise."
You huff, but begrudgingly shift focus back to the prior topic. "It's... I dunno. It's just you, Sam. It's... bright. Light. Something warm, out there in the cold dark. Standing out amongst all the rest. Calling to me, stealing my attention.â
Samâs brow furrows as you continue to explain, realization setting in that you really are being serious.
âI... I didn't come out here looking for it, but there it is. ...And there you were. In the dark. The only bright thing I'd seen in... fuck, in years. Years of chasing fleeting warmth, tripping over myself in the pitch black, falling into... places and people that I shouldn't have. You were the light in that darkness. Even there, at Wonderworld, surrounded by the ghost of him. Your warmth, your presence, your auraâeven with all of your walls up, you outshone it. Your warmth didn't hurt. I didn't have to squint when I looked at you. You weren't the blinding sun. You were the brightest star I'd ever seen. You guided me home."
In the back of your mind, you recall something you once heard, something about light, and time, and distance. Space. Something about... how you can still see a star that's already burnt out, because its light hasn't reached earth yet. The ghost of a star that's already died. Only still perceptible thanks to time, and distance.
You remember Sam's words, once whispered to you on this very roof.
"Whatever your choice is... I'm not gonna live forever. I made that decision a long time ago."
You think about dead stars.
You think about time.
"...-lin'? Darlin'?" Sam's calloused hand squeezes yours tight, his urgent tone pulling you out of your thoughts. "There you are. Think I lost ya' for a minute there... you good?"
You look up at Sam, concern creasing his features, faint shadows cast across his face from the light of the dying stars above him.
You reach out, pulling him down into you. He falters for a moment at the sudden proximity, but quickly embraces you in turn. Burying your face into his collar, Sam's concern grows when he feels it saturate with tears. A human might struggle to hear your words, muffled against the thick flannel, but his hearing catches them just fine.
"Don't burn out too quickly. Please. I still need you here. I don'tâI don't wanna be left in the dark again. Please, please Sam. Don't leave me here. I'm not selfish enough to ask you for forever, but please. Not yet. Not yet. Not yet."
The words feel like a weight being lifted from your shoulders, but with it comes a flood of emotion theyâd been holding back. You cry harder into him, and as much as it pains Sam to witness, he lets you feel it, for as long as you need.
Your fear of losing him manifests itself physically, nails curling and sharpening again. When he feels them prick his skin through the fabric of his shirt, he calls your name but doesnât pull away. Instead, he leans further down into you, letting his weight ground you. âDarlinâ, I am right here. Iâm not goinâ anywhere.â
As you eventually cry yourself out, enough wherewithal returns to you to realize that you should probably release the poor man from your grasp, and the awkward position you pulled him into. When he pulls away enough to see your face, you notice a string of snot running from your nose to his shirt collar. Quickly batting it away out of embarrassment, you cringe, voice thick as you apologize. âEugh, gross. Uh⊠sorry. About that.â
He shakes his head, laughing good-naturedly as you wipe at your nose with your jacket sleeve. âItâs completely fine, honey. After all, Iâve been covered in plenty of your, uh⊠various fluids before. When you come from my line of work, this is childâs play.â
He leans to his right, reaching back and pullingâof all thingsâa handkerchief from his jeansâ left back pocket. You laugh at his words, and at the sight, but with how congested you are it turns into more of a hacking cough than anything. Accepting his offering, you blow your nose into the black patterned fabric.
As soon as you can speak somewhat clearly, you canât stop the teasing remark that slips out of you, gesturing with the wad of fabric in your hand. âYou know, you really arenât beating the cowboy allegations with stuff like this.â
He rolls his eyes but his soft smile remains. âItâs a practical thing to have on me, âallegationsâ be damned.â
You shake your head with a smile of your own, but donât disagree. As youâre visibly unsure what to do with the dirtied fabric, he takes it from you, setting it aside. âIâll toss it in the wash when we go back inside. Along with my shirt, andâŠâ He eyes you for a moment. ââŠthat jacket of yours too, given how long youâve probably been wearinâ it.â
Normally youâd argue that it hasnât been that long, but come to think of it, you actually canât recall when you last washed the thing.
Reaching up and rubbing your temples, you already regret your crying fit as a headache begins to set in. âFuck, Sam... Iâm sorry for⊠whatever that just was. I donât know what came over me.â
His expression falls into something serious again. âYou never need to apologize for feeling. And it certainly seems like⊠you needed to feel that.â
You nod quietly, but donât elaborate, prompting him to question you gently. âDarlinâ. What was that about? Theâthe askinâ me not to leave. Are you⊠afraid that Iâm gonna leave you?â
You close your eyes, weighing out your response. ââŠNot in the sense that youâll break up with me or something, no.â
His gaze narrows and his head tilts as he rolls your answer over in his mind. âIf it ainât that, thenââ He remembers how you mentioned âforeverâ and cuts himself off as the puzzle pieces start coming together. âOh. âŠOh, Darlinâ, no.â
You open your eyes to watch as he shifts from leaning next to you, moving to sit up beside you. âIs this about what I told you, when we sat up here and had our uhâŠÂ turning discussion?â
You hate to admit it, but you nod in confirmation. ââŠItâs your choice, Sam, and I never want to take that away from you. I shouldnât have said what I just did, IâI donât want to make you feel guilty, or like you have to stick around for my sake. But Iâd be lying to you if I said it hasnât been playing on my mind. The thought of you⊠leaving. Like that.â
He reaches up, running a hand through his hair. âI⊠think I maybe shouldâve been a bit more clear, when I said that. Because I wasnât talking about any time soon. I didnât want to give you the false impression that I plan on sticking around for centuries, but⊠I also wasnât trying to imply that Iâve got plans to do it next week either.â
You bolt upright, voice cracking. âNext week?! I sure as shit hope not!â You grab your head, pain flaring and suddenly dizzy from the quick shift in position.
He places a hand on your shoulder to steady you. âIâm not, honey, Iâm not. Did you catch the rest of my sentence? Iâve got no plans to leave this world any time soon. I promise.â
You groan, head pounding. âI heard you, I did, I justâfuck, I donât even wanna think about you leaving so soon. Here I am, stressing, thinking Iâve only gotâI donât knowâsome odd years left with you, andâŠâ You sigh, trailing off.
Sam stays quiet for a minute, letting the crickets sing.
Eventually, he interrupts their chorus. ââŠCan I get closer to you?â
You nod. ââŠPlease.â
He closes the gap between you, carefully wrapping a strong arm around your curled shoulders. âYouâve got way more than a couple years. I promise you that.â Your tension begins to ease a bit as he clarifies. âYou⊠youâve helped me find a life that I actually feel like livinâ again, for the first time in a long time. And I want to experience it with you for as long as I can.â
ââŠReally?â Your voice sounds so small, so unsure, soâŠÂ unlike you when you question him that he wants to kick himself in his own ass for the role he unintentionally played in making you feel this way.
âYes. Really. I meanââ His voice takes on an edge of humor. âIf you decide to set your sights on the year 3,000âŠâ He shakes his head. âI donât know about that. But as far as the 21st century is concerned? âŠI think Iâd like to see it through. For as long as youâre there to see it with me.â
His words cause fresh tears to well up in your eyes, and you sniff in an attempt to hold them back. The sound catches his attention, and he leans forward, thumbing across your warm cheek. ââŠIâm makinâ you cry againâŠâ
You shake your head, clearing your throat. âNoâNo, itâs okay. Itâs good. Theyâre⊠theyâre good. Itâs⊠relief.â
He breathes out a relieved sigh of his own. âYeah?â
You nod, leaning into him. âYeah.â
As you rest against each other, breathing in the cool night air, you nudge him with your shoulder. âCan we⊠lay back? For a bit?â
He squeezes your arm in gentle confirmation. âOf course.â
He twists and reaches back to straighten the wrinkled blanket beneath you, before laying out across it himself. The radio crackles as he turns the volume back up a bit. Watching him with tired eyes, you smile at the sight of him patting his chest in habitual invitation.
âSit in and watch the sunlight fade. Honey, enjoy, itâs gettinâ late. Thereâs no plan. Thereâs no hand on the reign. As Mack explained, there will be darkness again.â
Curling up against his side and laying your head on his chest, you release a heavy sigh when his hand comes up to rest on your shoulder. As his fingers press rhythmically into the tense muscle beneath them, you breathe in his scent. Black coffee and wildflower honey⊠he smells like home.
âYour secret is safe with me, and if secrets were like seeds, when Iâm lyinâ under marble, marvel at flowers youâll have made.â
You reach your hand out across his broad chest, slipping beneath his open flannel and sliding down to rest on his waist. He sighs, relaxing further beneath your touch.
âMy heart is thrilled by the still of your hand. Thatâs how I know now that you understand.â
Yeah, youâll take this over âluxuryâ any damn day.
âThereâs no plan. Thereâs no race to be run.â
Laying there with him, listening to the low hum of the radio, the moment grows so comfortable that you almost hesitate to break it.
âThe harder the pain, honey, the sweeter the song.â
ââŠSam?â You whisper into the night.
His hand sweeps across your back before returning to your shoulder. âIâm here, Darlinâ.â
âThereâs no plan. Thereâs no kingdom to come.â
You smile. âI⊠Iâd like to be there, to be here, to see it through with you, too.â
It takes him a moment to recall exactly what youâre referring to, but when it hits him he hums a low understanding tone, clearly pleased. âThen letâs see where it takes us, yeah?â
âBut Iâll be your man if you got love to get done.â
He presses a soft kiss to your temple. âWeâve got plenty aâ time.â
A/N: Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed. You can find my extensive notes and commentary on this fic right here on Ao3. My Sam & Darlin' Playlist My Sam Playlist My Darlin' Playlist My Sam & Darlin' Moodboard My Sam Moodboard My Darlin' Moodboard Header Image Credit: Gage Smith on Unsplash
#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redactedverse#redacted sam#redacted darlin#redacted fanfic#redacted fandom#sam collins#samuel collins#redacted tank#fanfiction#fanfic#my writing#one of my last Redacted posts didn't make it into the tags. which wasn't a big deal since it wasn't something important#but i spent some real time and effort on this fic so if tumblr yeets This post into the void i Will cry. and then painstakingly repost it#i've got big feelings about Sam and y'all r gonna see it whether u like it or not /lh#anyways hey this fic was unexpected. and much like Midnight Hour the production time was relatively fast thanks to the power of Fixation#i was gonna post the next chapter of Heaven in Hiding and then work on a Boothill oneshot and then maybe the [N]MbD New Year's fic#but i've been feeling Some Kinda Way lately and i guess i needed to project it onto Sam. so this fic took precedence#i humbly offer my first contribution to the Redacted fandom. pls don't attack me if they're OOC /hj#i'm out here doing my best to walk the line between canon compliance and self-indulgence#also i know that bright thing in the header image i used can't be Sirius. it's gotta be like. a planet i think? not sure which one tho#i've never even seen a planet that bright but my sky isn't all that dark so maybe they Can look that bright in some places#idk. the image description on Unsplash doesn't say. but 'planet' is in the tags so that's my guess#the only thing i've seen be that bright in the night sky 'round here is military flares. but maybe it's to do with how the photo was taken#a n y w a y s point is. the star Darlin' sees isn't That bright but the photo was too fitting not to use
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âwhite mourning.â
#ââA white mourning. A modern death. Divorce or something similar. All you can do is put more distance between you & him. make him smaller.ââ#jean is a very easy character to hate if you know nothing about him. & you know what they say. easy target doesnât make for a good practice#judit literally compares harry to intellectually disabled man yet you donât see ppl hating her because she is outwardly nice.#sheâs polite yes but she doesnât care as much as jean cares for harry#he is not perfect. he is mean. but loyal. if he truly didn't care he wouldn't hab come back to martinaise & coulda just reported harryâs as#he put up with du boisâ bullshit for years and built a toxic (totally straight) relationship with him yet always comes back.#he says he will leave you in the village to die but please understand harry isn't exactly a great person. especially pre-bender hdb.#planned a make up joke & put on a wig for hdb even tho he wasnât the who started the whole fiasco#you can hate him all you want for leaving harry before & during tribunal but how could he have foreseen all this bullshit would have happen#his second leaving is kinda bullshit writing but#jv is dealing with his own demons too. clinical depression. partner almost died. job is shit. case spiraling out control#i do not blame the DE staff either. sometimes shit just happens. not everything needs a grand explanation.#but it definitely coulda been handled better. but i understand. resources were sparse.#i relate to âjv. as someone with temper issues & attention problems i have to remove myself from the scene or i'll say shit i'd regret late#my man is having the worst week of his life. leave him alone.#kim is great but have u heard of a man who thinks he's old when he is only 30 & luvs horses & his commie boyfriend that he's divorcin' soon#disco elysium#de fanart#jean vicquemare#disco elysium fanart#jean heron vicquemare#jean posting#illustration#de#artists on tumblr#I WANTED TO DRAW THIS FOR MONTHSSS YOU COULDN'T IMAGINE. HE LITERALLY HAUNTED ME IN MY SLEEP!!!#i love him normal amount. very healthy. much feelings#my little maiu maiu#cryptiduni#my art
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Super sexy me is so sexy I accidentally set off the fire alarm while baking pie shells for my pumpkin pie. And now I don't know if I should've even baked them in the first place. But well. Too late now đ
#speculation nation#i am not a fucking baker so something always goes wrong when i make these pies đđđ#but i am craving my grandma's pumpkin pies... i gotta bake them myself if i want them rn...#see the thing is ive previously bought pre-baked like. graham crusts#but i was like 'that crust sucks lets get a different thing'#so i got tbis dough shit that i put into pans. the box said to bake it. and so i was like ok cool#then as they were in the oven i looked at the pumpkin pie recipe for starting the filling#and then saw that it says 'unbaked shells' and so đ„đ„đ„đ„#but too late now and it worked fine with the graham. and well. the filling is what i care about the most.#the crusts are just an excuse for having pie filling.#anyways i did set off the alarm. i think it's bc the oven was on so hot#the box says 450 which is hotter than i ever usually do. the pies themselves ask for 350#so well i turned the oven off and i have the microwave fan running#which oh yeah the fucking handle to my microwave fucking broke. it fucking broke.#i think i'll duct tape it or smth lol. microwave itself works fine still. and i dont want people in my apartment.#it's just the bottom part but it sure did just. splinter off. that shit is Broke broke.#and i scared the shit outta my cats And me with that damned alarm. and now i am just waiting.#calming down some. chilling the crusts. soon i will resume making the pie filling.#it's not like it even takes much time i am just. Nervous now.#i wanna let the oven cool off more b4 i have it going for like 45 mins lol#the crusts are kinda ugly. one of them is inflated on the bottom. these pies r going to be disasters.#so long as they still taste good......thats what i care about the most...#maybe my crusts will end up nuclear... if that happens tho ill just eat the filling out of the crust... its fine... ill be fine...#đđđđđđ why is everything so hard
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Bowtie Charm! Inspired by @zarla-sââ super cute rendition hehe đ (Patreon)
Bonus collar breakdowns:
Changes depending on the doodle!
#Doodles#Villainsona#Just Desserts#And a couple other sonas! Haha#Very yays and thank yous again for the trade â„ She's so cute hehe#She doesn't normally wear a bowtie but her collar can look a lot like it at times!#I decided to go all in to see just how she Would look with a bowtie and the answer is cute! I for one am shocked#My bowties tend to be quite poofy huh always very rounded - Charm's collar tapers kinda almond shaped#I'm still not entirely sure how the double-tapered look works.... It's scalloped >.> That's what I always say lol#Really she probably would and should have the Mandarin collar - possibly more scalloping >:3c - I just go outside the margins a lot haha#I've drawn her once or twice with the butterfly collar tho! Where her collar dips down into her spiderweb pattern at the top of her shirt!#It's a really cute shape ahhh it works best with my lineless stuff but even here I think it turned out nice! :D Cute! Pretty!#Butterfly in a spiderweb........wings something something much to think about#Butterfly were 100% my gateway into finding bugs and eventually spiders cool so there you go symbolism-wise lol#Still remember being too excited to sleep as a littley on the promise of going to a butterfly house the next day hehe <3 Love 'em!#Fullbody as well - the larger dot in the middle of her kneepad in Zarla's looks like a donut to me so I had to try that out too!#Smol's actually been talking about making a donut/eclaire-themed JD Resident lately I can't steal her thunder hehe âȘ Oh just this once#Donut kneepads probably would offer a good bit of support that cookie kneepads don't huh :0 Less pressure right on the kneecap#All the cutes! Though I did keep her double-scalloped thigh-high shoes I can't help it they're my favourite haha#And ending off with the other two Bowtie Sonas! Hall of Mirrors definitely deserves that moniker she was introduced with that as a feature#And their cane but pfsh details - the important part is the bowtie! And they have that!#Will's is just to break up his design a bit haha - I think Erase has the same style of bowtie now that I think of it??#White on white tucked into the jacket... Hm!#Always love a trio or duo or however âȘ The fun the fun â«
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I want to write something but I am feeling totally uninspired... Does anyone have any suggestions on what I should try writing for?
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Any reason why Cha is pronounced Kay or 's it just for the silly? /genuine question
Yeah? Kinda?? It's a bit of a silly reason tbh, it's bc when I was making this acc way back when I had no idea for online names so I just took the first part of "chaos" from my username and used it lol XDD
#tbh im kinda regretting it now i have a better idea for a name but its a bit too late now everyone knows me as cha#its okay tho cha is what i choose and it stuck:)#:)))#its a boring reason XD#token talks#cha answers#moots#idrawgaystffs#i just realized its not idrawgaystuffs#lol#stffs#that's fun to say XDD
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Is there a discord server where I can talk about irkensonas? I want to throw kipo data from time to time and I like seeing other people's ocs. Literally every one I see is cuter or cooler than the last.
#or just another iz server would be nice#i feel like i joined the fandom a bit too late#just one that accepts me too#i say this bc i've seen a few servers that are kinda anti zadr shippers#tho i wouldnt talk about that in an oc focused server xd#but still#i dont want to make anyone uncomfortable#just chatting about the bald girl#invader zim
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i watched wickeddddddd
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So do I even dare to look at the Jamil tags now or is it just gonna be face full of jp book 7 spoilers.
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absolutely hilarious to me the contrast of writing happenstance while occasionally getting inspiration & drafting stuff for my next project which is⊠drastically different đ
hereâs a wholesome scene about the power of friendship & love đ ok now hereâs a family of deeply hurt & flawed individuals with absolutely no hope of salvaging any of their relationships ever đ
#scream au is gonna be so different from anything else Iâve written if I follow through with it đ±#itâs honestly fun tho. really a fan of the scene I just drafted between Azula & kiyi. I usually write them with a wholesome twist#but uh. donât count on much wholesomeness from the fire fam at any point if I do this idea đ
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#thereâs something delicious about two traumatized people who just absolutely fucking loathe each other tho you know#no hope kinda shit can be sexy sometimes what can I say <3#like. the. we couldâve been besties in another life maybe but itâs too late for that now & thereâs no going back in time#also having fun letting kiyi be a little awful. as a treat#I should stfu this project is SO hypothetical#I need to stop vague ing đ#rose.txt
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"please don't do that" = my inspiration to do that
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#it always feels so nice whenever i do things i just kinda. never imagined myself doing#aka 'i didnt think id have friends ever so i was just going to hermit forever' kgjdjdjsjs#its more 'i dont think people would like me enough to hang out' so.#but yeah....#i got to talk more to this guy x at work who started the same time i did#so he and i just kinda vibe and are honest w each other#it was nice just chatting about life and all that#he didnt have a ride home so i offered him one and thats just something i didnt really think id do#idk bc it was more spontaneous and i feel id be too anxious or think 'oh god maybe he doesnt like me and would feel weird'#but we actually vibe so the ride was super chill#IT WAS CHILL UNTIL HE MENTIONED STAR RAIL AND I WAS JUST 'DONT SAY THAT#but yeah.#idk.#its that thing of 'try to be the friend you wished you had'#x is cool tho hes funny#i was just surprised he said hes quiet when he started. he was not quiet at all when we first had a shift together jdfjdjdj#orientation buddies ig sjfjdjsjs#ANYWAYS#i also started training on my promotion job and its been nice. a little overwhelming but skfjdjd its not bad#friends tag#avil speaks#it was just a nice day today haha#SORRY i just am mush lately about friends. believe me itd be worse here but djfdjjd you know. have to shut up.#otherwise its like everyday 'man.... i like my friends. my friends are so nice. i wish them happiness and warmth'
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